Givingt More to Him

I had a unique situation recently. Have you ever had a situation in which you were put into a position that you felt totally unqualified for? That was me multiple times this past week.

I have several dear friends who are very mature Christians. They know scripture a million times better than me. They have more religious education than me. When they start talking I listen because I will learn. One of them came to me with a spiritual problem and I did not know what to do.

Here I was the person that usually goes to them and they were coming to me. I didn’t know what to say. My mind was spinning. I was not prepared for this. I was not educated enough for this. I felt like an idiot. They needed something from me and I had nothing to give. I just sat there. When I spoke, I felt foolish.

God is not a haphazard god. He knows exactly what He is doing. He knew I would be in that position, and He had equipped me for that scenario. I just was not prepared. I had not put on my armor and gone through my drills. I was the one who failed. He more than did His part.

What did I do wrong? My prayers were not there. I was not praying for God’s wisdom to come through me mouth. I was just panicking. My trust was being placed in myself which was a huge mistake. I knew that I should not do that, but in my shock to find myself in this position I turned to my human nature instead of leaning totally on God.

Here I am a minister’s wife and I stumble to counsel! Why? Because I looked at this person as being above me spiritually. I knew they had problems and concerns. I knew they had faults. Trust me, I know that no person is perfect or has it easy in this world. But when those that are more educated than me turn to me, I stumble. I am not expecting it. I don’t have enough faith in where I stand.

The solution? More time with God. That is the only answer. I need to pray more. I need to study more. I need to trust Him more. Overall I need Him more.

I am getting back into my in depth personal time with Him. I’m making the time. Life took over for awhile, but I’m giving it back to Him one moment at a time.